today..
i finally get back to single..
we hav this conversation n i decide to break up with him..
he was so angry n say tat he won't be finding me anymore..he was totally disapointed to me bcz i broke my promise tat i won't break up 1st..
bt wat i was trying to tell him was..
i dun wanna lie to him n lie to his feelings( tat will make me feel as a lier)..
if someday he realise tat he wasn't really love me, wat will he do? will he do de same thing like me o he will pretend tat he still love me..
NO.. he will tell me the truth...

if i  dun tell him now..n he realise someday tat i lie to him...he will be totally angrier than nw..
i rather he angry me for now n he won't be more disapointed when he noe tat i lie to him..
for now, i'm just an ordinary fren o even he dun think me as his fren to him...
hav i done wrong? should i lie to him?

y were boys always think tat their feelings were the most important than girls?
when they wanna break up with girls, they cn easily say tat without caring any of girls feelings n they feel very free n syok then..
bt when girls say wanna break up 1st, they will think tat ''she'' had betray him, n very very hate tat girls o all girls already..
i dun understand..i just dun understand wat boys were thinking..
they make me confuse...
nw i starting to unlike boys much already..
mb some still cn be frenz bt nt as close as older days already..

nw my 烦恼finlly over..
n i cn concentrate on my 学业liao..
hope he cn forgive me someday n we cn still be frenz..

things tat happen 2day..

我今天非常不爽, 因为我好像不知弄到哪一条根或痉(右脚的), 害到我现在好难走路, 一拐一拐的...
站又站不稳, 只要走一小段路都痛的要死....

今天也有开心的时候,
今天是梅梅的生日..当我们在上bio的时候, 梅刚进来, 他们就突然间唱生日歌..
梅被吓到, 她的样子非常丰富而且很可爱..

AM老师帮我们check file..然后我们发觉有些她没叫我们做可是是要做的功课..
大家都非常忙碌且哀怨好多要做..她还说这个星期五要交呢...害得我们都赶死赶命..
haizz..if din finish then cnt exem pp2 lagi..
wish i cn finish on time cz these days gt a lot of homework to do oh..n need pass up lagi ..

words tat wanna say to u..

now..
i totally realise tat my feel to you is not love..
the feel which i thought is love..is only the love of a brother n sis..
juz because i dun hav a brother, i wish to hav the love of a brother...

i remember  when i say ''yes'' to you...i say maybe we can try..
but now..
i really couldn't continue anymore..i feel tired..
i don't even noe y i say ''i like you'' which i found out today tat u're totally not my type..
u may look cool when we've been frenz..(maybe you're acting tat u're cool enough to get my attention) but then u let me noe u're actually , totally not cool at all..

u once ask me y i say yes to you, i juz wanna noe wat is tat feeling to you at tat time..then i realise it now..
it is hard to say goodbye to you, cz you've say before tat u dun one to play play n wanna stay with me..
i'm afraid to tell u which maybe we cn't even be frenz anymore f i tell u..

haizz..
wat cn i do? tell  d truth o keep as usual?
 maybe u've realise it these days..
n i believe in my heart tat u're not actually really love me (which u say so)....
u hvn meet the girl tat u would really fall into her..

in our ages, we're not suppose to fall in love..
n we'll realise tat the love we thought r not actually 真爱..
the way u make feel tat u're juz want ur 虚荣心 tat u've fall in love with a girl n not get hurt by her...
which it's nt really fallin in love to her..

maybe when you say these..
u'll feel very hurt n angry..
but i hv no choice bt to tell u these..
if u're me, wat will u do?
wish we're still frenz after u say wat i say..
thanks...

我的烦恼

恋爱是甜蜜, 苦涩, 痛心的...
一个人恋爱当然是甜蜜的...
但如果开始恋爱后才发觉其实你并不爱他, 该怎么办?
对方说:"我是一个非常痴情的人. 我已经受到太多的伤害, 你不会玩我的感情的是不?"
在这种情况下, 你想要分手, 但又不知该如何分, 你会如何?
想要对他坦白, 但又怕他会不接受, 该怎么办??
烦啊!! 请告诉我该怎么办.....