today..
i finally get back to single..
we hav this conversation n i decide to break up with him..
he was so angry n say tat he won't be finding me anymore..he was totally disapointed to me bcz i broke my promise tat i won't break up 1st..
bt wat i was trying to tell him was..
i dun wanna lie to him n lie to his feelings( tat will make me feel as a lier)..
if someday he realise tat he wasn't really love me, wat will he do? will he do de same thing like me o he will pretend tat he still love me..
NO.. he will tell me the truth...

if i  dun tell him now..n he realise someday tat i lie to him...he will be totally angrier than nw..
i rather he angry me for now n he won't be more disapointed when he noe tat i lie to him..
for now, i'm just an ordinary fren o even he dun think me as his fren to him...
hav i done wrong? should i lie to him?

y were boys always think tat their feelings were the most important than girls?
when they wanna break up with girls, they cn easily say tat without caring any of girls feelings n they feel very free n syok then..
bt when girls say wanna break up 1st, they will think tat ''she'' had betray him, n very very hate tat girls o all girls already..
i dun understand..i just dun understand wat boys were thinking..
they make me confuse...
nw i starting to unlike boys much already..
mb some still cn be frenz bt nt as close as older days already..

nw my 烦恼finlly over..
n i cn concentrate on my 学业liao..
hope he cn forgive me someday n we cn still be frenz..